It's a bit like infinity. We sort of know it's there (ish, nearly, almost, sort of.) But nobody really understands it.
If you can stick this out, the time clock increases it's pace exponentially, which gives you an idea of how incomprehensible these large numbers really are:
A true Kiss of Death … (or at least one idea of one.)
https://youtu.be/uD4izuDMUQA